Inner Dialogue Versus Prayer?

Are you someone like me who has inner dialogue with yourself all the time?

I mull over things. I stress trying to come up with answers. I worry, wondering how something could work out if I don’t come up with answers. I think over every angle & how I can fix something when nothing seems to be going right.

I rehash uncomfortable or hurtful conversations, trying to figure out where I went wrong or why the other person said what they said or how I could have handled it any better.

I get frustrated when inconvenienced or when I’m the victim of outright rude behavior & then I go through all of my could have, would have, should haves, knowing the moment has already passed. I get annoyed & inwardly fume at whatever they did that was hurtful to me.

I daydream. I create whole worlds in my head that I can escape to when I don’t have a good book on hand. It’s how I soothe when bored or restless.

I try to soothe myself or justify my reaction in my head or talk myself out of or through whatever I am feeling.

I sit in guilt when I mess up. I mull over it & stress about it & kick myself, beating myself up when I make a wrong choice with my attitude or behavior or reaction for the millionth time that day.

And in all of those things, I ought to be talking to God about it instead.

Turn My Thoughts to Prayers

That’s a hard thing for me to come to terms with. I mean, I know God is always listening—He always hears me—& I know we’re supposed to “pray without ceasing,” (1 Thessalonians 5:16-18) but I guess it just comes so naturally to just think it over in my head versus acknowledging His presence is with me in every situation.

It’s much easier to do all of the above & then talk to family or friends about it than to remember, “Oh yeah, God… You’re right there, aren’t You? You saw that. You heard that. You know how to & can help me… so let me bring it to You.”

But it’s more than that, isn’t it? Because somehow I want to feel capable or feel I ought to be able to figure it out as a grown up adult. I guess because turning to Him instead takes faith & it takes practice & surrender. It takes letting go of control & giving it to Him instead.

Have Faith in the GOD Who Loves You!

Going to God instead of handling it myself takes faith because I have to take a step back to recognize He is GOD—& I am not. He literally knows EVERYTHING. He SEES everything. He HEARS everything—even thoughts. He also has perfect wisdom & cares about me.

He cares about me. There’s another place of needed faith…. That He cares enough to step into my little (or big) issue & help me. That He is never too busy because He is infinite. That He can’t be diminished, no matter how great or little my need. That whatever seems “just the way it is” to me is never impossible to change for Him… & that whatever change He determines is needed… is for my actual good.

He can do anything without diminishing any of His power or God-ness AND He loves us more than we can comprehend. It should be easy to put faith in Him in everything. But it takes letting go & letting HIM.

Fail Forward, It Is Worth It!

And it doesn’t come naturally. It takes practice. I have to DETERMINE to turn to Him in my mind & heart to hand it over to Him for help. It takes practice.

“I’m sorry, Lord, I’m doing it again… having a conversation in my head & trying to figure things out when You’re right here willing & able to help. Please forgive me. Help give me direction, wisdom, & peace. Help me to better trust You & help me to come to You more immediately next time. Amen.” This is a prayer I have learned to start praying whenever I find myself self-dialogueing versus talking to Him about it in my heart, acknowledging that He is right there all the time.

I need to TRAIN my brain to acknowledge Him & turn to Him in ALL things.

“In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.” (Proverbs 3:6)

Surrender, Surrender, Surrender!

But, & this is probably the biggest hurdle of them all—it takes surrender to talk to Him instead of myself. I have to admit I need help. I have to give up control. I have to let go of the limitations that really are my comfort zones because they allow me to justify not moving forward when I don’t think moving forward feels possible or comfortable or fun in that area.

I have to give up being the main character in my story & admit I am a supporting character in HIS story… HIS-tory.

And not only that, but sometimes quite frankly I feel justified in how I want to think about a situation or circumstance.

Rude interaction? Rude response in my head.

Frustrated about life? I want to figure out how I want it fixed.

Am I willing to have faith? To let Him be GOD in my heart & thoughts?

Am I willing to practice turning my heart to Him in all things? Even when it doesn’t come naturally to me at all?

Am I willing to surrender my way or my feelings for His lead & His way?

That’s what prayer is really. That’s how we can pray without ceasing… because it’s a matter of turning to Him in every natural thought & asking Him to help you exchange it for something that better honors/pleases Him versus yourself. It’s a matter of SURRENDER.

Do You Talk to Yourself More Than to God?

So what is it like for you? Do you talk to yourself more than to God? Or does it come naturally to you to turn every thought to Him as if He is a friend always by your side, everywhere you go, who can read your every thought (because He is that Friend).

Or are you like me & you need to work on it quite a bit? Maybe put more faith in His ability & His care for you. Maybe it’s just a matter of needing to practice it because it doesn’t come naturally to you to acknowledge His ever-presence. Maybe it’s a matter of surrender, where you want a little of the control or feel the need to be in charge of how things turn out or how you think things OUGHT to turn out.

Or maybe, like me, it’s a little bit of all three of those.

Shine HOPE by turning your thoughts to Him in ALL circumstances, recognizing that He is ever-present with you everywhere you go & He cares for you, too—more than ANYONE ever could. He gave Jesus for you, so be careful ever doubting His deep care for you even for one single second. He LOVES you! Amen.

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