The Move of Continuous Struggles… But… God

You may or may not have followed that my husband & I just moved back to Guam a few months ago & that we are in temporary living until we can work through details for a home purchase.

Well, the saga continues with even more issues. It looks like temporary living is extended yet again & our longings for a HOME put off once more.

To say this entire process has been trying would be an understatement. From the process of the move continually blowing up in our face at the last minute to the MANY trials of the 2.5 days of travel, to now our seemingly never-ending pursuit of a place we can call HOME… it has been ROUGH.

And to admit it continues is disheartening. When does it end? Why is this happening? How many times can stuff go wrong? How many mistakes can be made by how many professionals whose job it is to guide us through this? Why? How? What? WHEN?!

But God has confirmed to us His hand in this, so we are left with a giant “shrug” emoji as our response to it all.

How Can I Trust God When Everything Falls Apart?

We have no clue how God is working or what He is planning, but we know He sure has His hand in it somehow because He has overwhelmed us with reassurance of His guidance for this path.

So, *shrug*

How can I trust God when everything falls apart as it seems to be so readily & consistently doing every step of the way?

Some have told us, “kinda makes you wonder if this is actually where God wanted you if so many things keep going wrong,” & trust me, I have been tempted to think this way sometimes, too, because satan easily & often convinces me of the easy-to-believe LIE that hard=bad & easy=good.

God’s Fingerprints & Reassurance in the STORM

But the ease in how this job came to our attention & how the pieces almost seemed to form together as we followed, without our trying to make it happen, show us His fingerprints in the plan.

And still the fact that EVEN with EVERYTHING seemingly sitcom-worthy nonsensical mishaps & craziness en route just all worked out anyway even though it seemed there would be ABSOLUTELY NO WAY POSSIBLE after everything that went wrong… almost like God was saying, “Nope, not even THAT can keep My plan from moving forward.”

He has SHOWN UP in this.

Hard Hurts

But hard hurts. Hard doesn’t feel good. Hard isn’t easy.

So, hard feels BAD. But hard is just hard.

I want to feel capable & in control, with a plan that I can execute, with God’s help, & feel strong & well able to charge ahead in this new path… but I’m not.

Throw depression in the mix & it’s like, “Really, God? Really?”

It’s like my life & my inner self is being stripped of everything that makes me feel strong & capable…. Glaringly obvious signs that I am NOT, in fact, strong & capable.

And it doesn’t feel good, let me tell you. It does NOT feel good.

So HOW can I trust God when everything falls apart? HOW?

Fearing God Is the Beginning of Wisdom

Because it all boils down to the repeated phrase throughout the Bible, as mentioned so well in Proverbs 9:10, “Fearing God is the beginning of wisdom.”

(Read my previous post on this topic, here: “Fearing God Is the Beginning of Wisdom.”)

That sounds foreboding & menacing, like a threat to submit & fear Him… maybe… but listen up….

For someone who rejects God, then yes, very much yes… you WILL face judgement whether you want to believe Him or accept Him or not. And if you insist on rejecting His grace, you WILL be called on to pay for your sin. The debt will fall on you.

But if you have accepted the gift of God, through Jesus paying your debt in full, submitting your life to Him… fearing God doesn’t come with a sense of doom, but rather facing a fact that God is GOD… & you are not.

So, taking that to heart, God’s absolute authority, Kingship, power, & control as ALMIGHTY GOD… I can trust that even if it seems like a hot mess of a dumpster fire with doom & destruction where absolutely NOTHING seems to work no matter HOW HARD you try… that HE HAS IT COVERED.

PERIOD.

We Know He Has It Covered!

Like I said, through God working the move together despite every turn being met with something or other falling apart at the last minute, coupled with the confirmation He has provided to me & my husband on this path with this house… we KNOW HE HAS IT COVERED.

Is it easy to have no say & absolutely no control whatsoever in this working out? NO!

Is it easy to not know what will happen & having to step forward without knowing where we will end up or when we will be able to call someplace HOME again? NO!!!

Is it easy to trust God when I don’t know His plan? No, no, no!

I have cried. I have felt like giving up. I have struggled with feelings of anger & bitterness. I have intimidated by the problems. I have wanted to just quit & run toward something that feels easier to me. I have had days where I just feel WEIGHED DOWN with ALL of it!

I don’t always have good days where I JUST TRUST. I don’t always submit in prayer immediately or respond with a gracious heart right away. My attitude has not always been honoring to God through this process.

But in those days & times, God whispers over my heart to praise Him, to recalibrate my heart to fix my eyes on Him & not on what I see or can’t see.

He reminds me to trust Him to be better & stronger & more capable than ME… by INFINITE amounts.

He reminds me that He WILL work everything not just for His glory, but always also for my good.

My Role Is to Just. Trust. Him.

And my role? Just. Trust. Him.

Let go & just trust Him.

Fall at His feet. Crawl to His throne. Whisper prayers in my weaknesses. And just trust Him.

“God, help me please oh please to just trust You.”

Shine HOPE by DETERMINING to trust the FACT that He has you, EVEN when EVERYTHING seems to be falling apart. Because He does. Oh, He DOES! Amen!

Just. Trust Him.

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