Playing Superhero

It’s easy for me to want to play superhero. I like feeling as if I have a pretty good handle on my life.

I like routine, with flexibility. The routine helps me feel grounded, but working in space for flexibility allows me to shift gears more easily, being able to tackle unknowns with a little less fluster & a little more calm.

I like control. When it all boils down, what I’m really saying is that I like control.

I am pretty sure I am not alone on this, either.

Balance Is Good, but Leave Room to Trust God FIRST

And for those who feel their schedule has NOT been ironed out yet, leaving them with a little more fluster & a little more flailing through each day… the reason we feel that way is lack of control. We want control. (Also, check out my “Managing Time, with God in Mind” post!)

It’s not that this is a bad thing to want. I am much more stable now that I have bowed my schedule woes to God & asked Him for an overhaul that allows more balance & peace in my schedule. I am much more productive that way.

But there’s a catch.

We cannot grow self-protective in our control over our schedule. We can’t RELY on our schedule & using that control as our source of confidence & peace. We can’t learn to rely on OURSELVES.

A Fresh Example Why Trusting Our Control Doesn’t Work As Well As It Seems

I have talked before about our journey of praying for a baby & how I handled it when God had not yet answered that prayer with a “yes.”

MEANWHILE, I was building a self-protection back-up plan in my heart of, “Well, if God DOESN’T give us a baby, here are all the reasons why that would probably be better ANYWAY.”

This is a natural thing for us to do because the unknown can sometimes be the scariest place to be. We want to think of how to fix the problem in a way that returns that control back to us.

BUT if we’re not careful, that new plan can REPLACE our trust in God, creating a NEW problem in & of itself.

For example, if I built up in my mind all of the ways that pregnancy & parenting would add stress, exhaustion, & hardship into my life, not to mention a more-strained bank account, how do you think I will likely react if God then were to answer us with the, “Yes, you will be parents!” answer we had been previously praying so hard for?

Trading Control for Surrender

My point is this, if our contentment/joy in our schedule, our plans, or our life is based on us having control, we will inevitably lose that façade of control & will be left vulnerable & hurting once again.

We need something MORE than our meager, unreliable means of control over our own lives to base our hope & security.

We NEED to trust GOD.

Surrendering Our Control for HIS Control

In my baby scenario, the healthiest way I could have managed that fear of His “NO” would be if I had turned to Him in the hurt & talked with Him through it, “God, I don’t understand Your “no” & it hurts! I want a baby & I don’t understand why Your plan would not include that for me. I have wanted this phase of life to become reality since I was a young girl, playing with my dolls, dreaming of someday being a Mommy to my own precious child. I want game nights & prayer times. I want to teach them about You. I want to love them SO MUCH. I don’t understand. It hurts. Please help me to trust Your plan in the midst of Your “no” right now. Help me to trust You more than I trust having a baby or not. You are the One who can offer me the most fulfillment, so please help me to see that & to grow in that understanding & love for You & trust in You. Amen.”

(To calm your possible aching hearts, I HAVE since turned my prayer time on this topic toward this direction & God HAS provided me with peace & assurance in Him, no matter the outcome. I can jump for joy with friends becoming new mamas & I can live my days in contentment & purpose, knowing God has my heart in His capable, loving hands, in His perfect & loving plan. Do I still have occasional days where my heart aches? Yes. But this is more the rarity than the norm. He has me & will continue to have me… & that’s a great & safe place for my heart to be, come what may. He’s got me.)

He Does a Much Better Job-It’s Worth It!

I like feeling capable just as much as the next girl. I like feeling in control & empowered.

But I am just a girl, knowing I have limitations & knowing my dear God who has none & who loves me infinitely more than I can express to you. (And He loves YOU just the same!)

While I crave control, I want to learn to ditch that addiction that I cling to so tightly. I want to learn to cling to Him.

Because all can change. All can fade away. I can lose it all.

But His hope remains.

His power remains.

His love remains.

His GRACE remains.

Control & Surrender-The Life-Changing Difference

I want to train my heart to pry away my white-knuckled fingers from controlling my life & circumstances & I want to ever-learn how to rest back into His capable arms, asking Him to lead my day, my steps, my words, my LIFE.

There is so much life-changing beauty in learning & living the difference between control & surrender. One leaves us reliant on our own limitations & the other frees us to trust THE God who has none.

Because THAT, my friend, is where TRUE joy & contentment can flourish… & where we can finally learn what He meant when He said, “I have come that they may have LIFE, & have it more ABUNDANTLY.” (John 10:10)

Shine HOPE by letting Him have the reins of your life & by putting your full hope in Him, no matter what life may bring.

Trust Him FIRST, last, & everywhere in between. ALWAYS.

He’s GOT you, Girl.

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Fashion as a Force for GOOD:

Each week, I feature an item that is changing lives for women around the world. These hand-crafted pieces are offering job creation opportunities for women artisans in impoverished nations all around the world! Check out this week’s featured beauty!!

Ramala Bracelet Set

(Only 1 of 2 Bracelets shown in photo.)

A set of 2, these bracelets are silver, adjustable, & 1 (shown) features real moonstone, with varying hues of lilac, blue, & purple.

Artisan Information:

The poverty cycle in India continues primarily because of the lack of education. Most schools are not free or affordable. Therefore, many children never learn to read or write & grow up with limited opportunities. However, every purchase of this product empowers women to provide for their children & send them to school! You have the opportunity to end poverty & create an impact for generations to come!

Purchase this piece & empower a woman in India!

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“Obedience” Feels Like a Bad Word

Obedience is a tough subject, isn’t it? Especially for those of us, like me, who are strong-willed & like to make their own decisions.

Just hearing the words, “you need to obey,” makes me cringe & recoil… anyone else?

Why is that?

I’m Not Sure I Trust You…

I think for some of us, it’s quite simply a lack of trust.

We have seen people err in their decisions & we want to make sure that we’re not blindly obeying something that could either hurt us or make us work harder than necessary.

In other words, we want to self-protect.

We want to fact check. We want to figure out a better way. Or sometimes we’re just being lazy or selfish, if we’re completely honest.

It’s My Life

And when we hear about “all of God’s rules,” we tend to feel like we’re being constricted… Like our choice, our life, & our fun is being taken away.

I used to really struggle with “all of the rules” in the Bible.

I used to want to test their limits to see what I could get away with, without “technically” breaking the rules.

I used to feel like God was some sort of cosmic dictator Who wanted to control my life & keep me as far away from fun & freedom as He could… like I had to deny myself of everything I wanted to do or of any fun I wanted to have, in order to please God & be allowed into Heaven.

I was wrong.

Obedience = Trust

Obedience to God is not about proving our allegiance to Him or to prove our worth to Him to earn our spot in Heaven.

Obedience is quite simply TRUST.

Obedience is trusting HIM more than we do ourselves or others.

It’s not a Master to Slave transaction.

It’s a LOVING Father to an adoring child relationship.

It’s like us looking up at His face, having our heart swell when we see Him looking down at us with His loving smile, reaching up to take His hand, & letting Him lead us.

It’s knowing so deeply how richly & unconditionally He loves our ever-wandering hearts & also knowing how perfect & all-knowing/all-wise He is, & because of that, we know we can trust Him with our entire selves & every part of our lives.

Retraining My Brain to Recognize His Love

Whenever I see mention of obedience or a call to obey in the Bible now, I pen in a note that says “AKA trust Him” or when I write obedience, I write “a trusting obedience” because I constantly need to be reminded that it’s not obedience for the sake of submitting to the dictator, but submitting out of trust in His love & care for me.

It’s not about earning His love, it’s about trusting His love.

It’s not about earning Heaven, it’s about trusting His grace.

It’s not about being “good enough”, it’s about trusting His leadership.

He Knows Best & Wants What’s Best

Obedience is no longer a scary, cringe-worthy word to me, but rather a reminder that He knows far better what He is doing than I do & sees much beyond my little blip in time & my little individual life.

He sees how every individual life & every blip in time fit together on an eternal scale.

He is working a plan together that will put to shame every evil action in all of history, showing that He will have the last word & that He is the only Almighty God.

We are so quick to want to trust ourselves & what we can see in front of us, the tangible… or trusting in others… but He wants us to trust Him.

Obedience isn’t about Him controlling us. It’s about us trusting His love.

Ask His Help in Trusting Him

So, next time you recoil at that word, “Obedience,” maybe stop & pray about it. God can help re-write your perspective.

“God, it’s so tempting & easy to trust only what I can piece together in my limited understanding & viewpoint, but help me to trust You more. I struggle obeying You because I don’t see You… I don’t trust You. I’m sorry. I want to trust You more. Please help me. Help me see that You are reliable & trustworthy & help me see just how much You really do love me. And when I don’t understand Your reasoning behind something that happens in my life, help me to lean into You & help me to trust You even then. I love You, Amen.”

God Is Patient, God Is Kind

You see, God knows that obedience is hard.

But God also is patient with us & willing to show His love for us & reassure us in our doubts & fears.

When you don’t trust Him, you have a choice to make….

You can either run AWAY from Him, or you can ask Him to help you to trust Him when it’s difficult.

It’s always okay to ask for His help. He gets it. He wants you to know you can trust Him.

Just like you wanting your child to know just how much you love them & wanting them to trust you… God wants to help you see that in His character as well, so always ask.

Shine HOPE by obeying God with TRUST in Him. He knows what He’s doing, even when we don’t get it & His ways are ALWAYS best.

Coming Next Week

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As God grows me, may it encourage you to seek Him & know Him & love Him more every day.

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A Note from Michelle:

If you would like to hear more of my story, check out the “About Me” page. And if you would like to hear how I found my lasting source of HOPE, read the “Hope Is Found” page, on this site. I hope they are an encouragement to you! <3

Also, make sure to “Join My Tribe” by adding your email to the top bar & clicking “Join My Tribe”. This gains you access to an extra weekly dose of encouragement from me in your inbox, along with the link to each week’s new post! I can’t wait to do this journey together!!

Weekly Special Spotlight:

Each week, I feature an item that is changing lives for women around the world. These hand-crafted pieces are offering job creation opportunities for women artisans in impoverished nations all around the world! Check out this week’s featured beauty!!

Sea Glass Necklace

Artisans recreate the look and feel of sea glass by upcycling glass bottles from local hotels and restaurants that would otherwise be discarded, and tumble it with water and sand from the Red Sea until it is smooth and resembles the beautiful pieces found in nature. Sizes and colors may vary.

Artisan Information:

Many Jordanian women have their lives controlled by their closest male relative. They balance many customs at home, creating a lack of independence. Some of these women are divorced, widowed, or married to a man who may already have many wives. But amid struggles, these women we work with arrive to a family-like workplace. They can be heard singing, laughing, and drinking tea while creating our unique jewelry made from upcycled glass bottles. The glass is tumbled with water and sand from the Red Sea. Your purchase empowers them with boldness and financial independence for the first time!

Purchase this piece and empower a woman in Jordan!

***Also Pictured: Truth Earrings, from the Philippines.***

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