It’s so easy To see this world As dark & dreary… A lost & broken world
So much hurt and so much heartache A mere shadow… Of all that was meant to be
But there’s hope In the darkness When we cling To the Light
Walking hand in hand (with Christ) In peace & love Trusting Him as God And us as His beloved
He longs… for our hearts He wants us to know His love He longs to offer us A life that was always meant for us
Not in getting our own way But in yielding to His Not in owning the whole world But enjoying His creation
Because there’s hope In the darkness When we cling To the Light
Hand in hand As we let Him lead us Bowing down our hearts To His great, enduring love
There is freedom in surrender Letting Him wash us clean Restoring in forgiveness To a Hope found just in Him
So, don’t spend your life wasted Pushing back against His love But surrender in safety To His sorrow-quenching love
Because there’s hope In the darkness As we cling To the Light
Hand in hand We love & trust Him Letting Him to be the King Over our created life
So, obey in trust And let Him lead As His love washes Over everything
And the mystery of surrender Is that when we finally yield We find that we find salvation And that then we’re finally free
Because there’s hope In the darkness When we cling To the Light
So, cling to the Light of Christ Surrender it all to His love And find your restoration To peace & hope in Him for all eternity long.
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Weekly Special Spotlight:
Each week, I feature an item that is changing lives for women around the world. These hand-crafted pieces are offering job creation opportunities for women artisans in impoverished nations all around the world! Check out this week’s featured beauty!!
Worthy Necklace
Beautifully delicate in design, this rose gold plated chain displays a light pink rose quartz stone. Crafted in India.
Artisan Information:
The women we partner with in India do so much more than just create beautiful products. With every purchase, another woman is empowered out of poverty to be self-reliant! Women have the opportunity to earn an income, attend financial management classes, and receive education and healthcare. These women are now able to give their family a promising future because of your purchase!
Purchase this piece and empower a woman in India!
SHOP Here, OR, Email me at michelle@michellehydeonline.com with any questions, & I will message you personally with more information!! Thank you for inspiring HOPE around the world, Lovely!
These last couple weeks, I have begun taking you on a journey of major “Pivot” moments in my life.
In these moments of life change, God has shown Himself true & reliable & capable. He has been the love & grace & patience & power that has gotten me through & He is patiently guiding me to be the woman He made me to be.
Doubts to Darkness
This week, we are following through with the results of last week’s Pivot moment & the answers that finally squashed all of the doubts rattling my heart.
((To catch up from last week & read the story of my seemingly endless doubts, check out that post, here.))
So, after a year or two of doubting everything I once believed in about the simplicity of grace… depression hit me hard.
We’re about to dive headfirst into my darkest days, so hold on!
Shutting God Out & Choosing Me
You see, I had just spent about two years slowly training myself to shut out God’s voice of wisdom & warning from guiding me. I wanted to do it my way.
And now, I was in a raging, stormy sea without a life preserver, just struggling
to survive on my own.
Depression became two long years of pain like I had never known before.
How It Began
I was a freshman, & then sophomore, in high school at this point, & my life was a mess of uncertainty & shame & fear & anger & hatred & loneliness & everything bad.
The cynical voice in my head had turned menacing & hurtful… telling me LIES that I believed, “Nobody likes you, you know. You’re not good enough for anybody. You’re an idiot. You’re fat & ugly. No one wants you. Their lives are harder because you’re alive. You complicate everything. Their lives are more peaceful & happier when you’re not here. Why are you here? No one wants you. You’re annoying. You’re too loud. You talk too much. Look at the mistakes you’ve made… you can’t undo them. You are a broken person who can’t be put together again. It would be better if you didn’t exist. You just make life harder for everyone. You would be doing everyone a service to not be here anymore. You can’t ever get anything right. Your family doesn’t want you. Your friends think you’re a joke. God doesn’t care about you either, if He even exists. You’re all alone. Why are you still here?”
Those lies were my every moment. I couldn’t shut them up or drown them out.
Trying to “Fake It Til I Make It”
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t shut off those voices in my head telling me life would be better without me in it.
I got so tired of asking for advice from others… because it never helped.
I started plastering on a smile that never quite reached my eyes & pretending that I was fine & I could handle it.
But I couldn’t.
Fading Away in the Silence
I was chipping away… My resolve weakening every time I cried.
I would be sitting in class, listening to that endless reel of hateful dialogue in my head & my eyes would burn with hidden tears.
I would write my hurt & fears in journals, needing to tell SOMEONE, only to end up sobbing at the fact that that “someone” was paper because I didn’t feel like I had anyone who understood the hell inside my head.
Sometimes I thought about suicide.
No One Understood, Not Even Me
I would try to tell someone, only to be mocked or teased or brushed off.
I would plaster a smile on my face that never quite reached my eyes.
I felt numb & hated & unloved. I felt angry & hurt & alone. I felt LOST in my sea of doubts, unable to find steady ground to hold on to.
My Secret Tears
I would come home from school so many days, grab my kitty “Valentine”, & slowly, quietly close & lock my bedroom door trying not to draw attention to myself, duck into my closet, underneath my row of clothes hanging above me, close the closet doors to block out the sunlight (& the sound of my sobs), & then wail into a pillow I had brought in with me, hugging my cat tightly under the other arm.
I spent several days a week like this for two years & I don’t know if anyone ever even knew.
My Life Began to Fall Apart
I hated my life & everything in it because I felt so alone & so unloved & so worthless.
The menacing whisper never let up either. It followed me everywhere I
went, never letting my heart rest.
I felt constantly beat up by a relentless wave of self-hatred.
My grades began plummeting. Relationships became strained.
I was losing faith in myself & others seemed to follow suit.
Pray, Girl, Pray! … But I Did!
At this point, you might be thinking, “Michelle! Your advice is always ‘pray first!’ so why didn’t you do that???”
I prayed so much it hurt.
I felt that God had abandoned me… that my choices to slowly, gradually do things my own way had offended Him beyond repair.
I was a Christian who “knew” better & yet had still turned her back on God.
Why would He want me? … If He even existed (I wasn’t sure of anything anymore).
But I kept praying.
Is He Listening? Does He Care?
I wondered how God could love me & let me suffer.
I wondered if He had just created us & left us down here to suffer
while He laughed & pointed out our failures.
I wondered if He was even real.
But I kept praying because I knew that if He was real, He’d be my only hope.
I Prayed… & I Hurt
If He was real, the way He describes Himself throughout the Bible, then He alone was powerful enough to clear my doubts & prove Himself as the one true God.
If He was real, He had the power to fix everything.
And yet, I kept hurting.
I kept hurting worse, with every day, or so it seemed to my breaking
heart.
I felt alone.
Rays of Hope Broke Through
And there would come times where I thought I saw Him through the dark clouds that overtook me.
A ray of sunshine (of hope) would break through my heart.
I would think, “Hey, that seems to be God helping me… right when I asked Him for help, _______________ happened! Maybe God DOES care about us… about me!!!”
But the Doubts Always Seemed to Win
But then, another wave of darkness… I would brush off that ray of hope like a glitch… or maybe I had just felt stronger that day & had just thought it was God or maybe it’s because someone helped me other than God… or basically maybe it was anything but God.
So, I would keep praying. But I would keep trying to find hope my own way.
And things like that ray of hope would keep happening when I chose to
pray.
And still I found a way to credit something else as the source… Something other than God.
I kept praying.
The Lost Man At Sea
Have you ever heard the story/joke about the man drowning, begging God to save Him?
Well, first someone throws him a life preserver, but he says, “No thank you! I am waiting for God to save me!”
Then a boat comes along & offers to rescue him as he screams to God for help… “No thank you!” he responds, “I am waiting for God to save me!”
Then a rescue helicopter comes & offers him a ladder to climb out of the choppy seas. “No thank you! I am waiting for God to save me!”
Well, eventually the man exhausts himself from treading water & crying out to God & the waves overtake him & he drowns at sea.
When he gets to heaven, he says, “God, why didn’t you save me?? I kept crying out to You!! Didn’t You hear me?? Didn’t You care?!?”
God patiently, gently rests His hand on the man’s shoulder & responds, “My son, I did hear you. I did listen. I sent you a life preserver, a boat, & finally a helicopter… But you didn’t accept any of it.”
That’s Where I Was… That’s What I Did
That was me during depression. I cried out to God. He responded. I accredited it to someone or something else & kept crying out to God to save me.
I would fall back into the darkness only to go back to relying on myself.
I doubted God too much to stay holding on to Him as my source for help because I didn’t know He was the One helping.
Thoughts of Suicide Became Plans for Suicide… But Then, GOD
And eventually, after years of asking (begging, through bleary eyes) for God to answer & clear up my doubts & to give me a true sense of hope & peace & security… I began to give up hope completely.
My temptation for suicide became more than just considerations… it became something that felt like my only hope.
No one wanted me (according to the lies in my head) & I wasn’t good for anything other than being a burden to everyone around me (again, the lies were ruthless & relentless).
No matter what I had tried to be strong enough, to smile through it, to think more positively, to ignore it, to find my own “happy”, to fight back, to be good enough… nothing EVER worked long term. They all crumbled eventually & they left me with nothing left to fight with.
I was done.
One Night… I Gave Up
And one night, through my desperate sobs, bringing me to my knees in my bedroom… Eventually weighing me down so much that I lay flat, face burrowed in the carpet…
I gave up fighting.
I was ready to die.
I was ready for the pain to stop because I couldn’t carry it anymore.
I didn’t feel I had any choice. I felt it was the merciful choice for a family & for friendships where I only caused them more drama, more burden, more pain.
I was ready to stop fighting. I had nothing left in me to try or to give.
I was tired & angry & hurt & felt unloved & invisible & mocked & ugly & fat & worthless & stupid & never good enough & weak & a burden. And I was so, so, SO tired.
One Night… I Stopped Trying to be “Strong Enough”
And as I lay there, face planted into the carpet, arms limp at my sides… legs lifeless… heart bleeding. No strength left to cry. Just numb & empty.
With barely a whisper worth of strength & hope left.
I prayed.
“God, don’t You hear me? Don’t I matter at all to You? Do You even exist? Are You laughing at me? Why won’t You help me? Why did You even make someone as worthless as me? [Sobs] I can’t do it anymore. I can’t fight. I have nothing left. If You are real, You are my ONLY option now nothing else works. My parents think I am drugged out. My sisters can’t seem to stand me… Many of my friends laugh at me like I’m a joke… My teachers don’t even bother anymore… I have nothing left. No one left. I can’t do it anymore, God. I’m not strong enough. If You really are God, You are my only hope. You are all that’s left. Please. Show me You are real, that You are near me & that You care for me. And if You can’t do that, kill me because I give up trying to be strong enough. Be my everything or let me die.”
One Night… God Changed EVERYTHING
And as my prayer faded… it happened.
Every ounce of hatred, of pain, loneliness, fear, doubt, anger, sadness, despair, sorrow, & everything that had pressed me down & down until I couldn’t stand anymore… EVERYTHING vanished in a single instant.
I felt a full breath of hope fill my lungs.
I felt goosebumps dance across every inch of skin.
I felt hope & love & joy & peace flood me like a rushing surge of water, racing to fill every broken place within me.
I felt FREE….
A smile danced at the corner of my mouth, erasing the bitterness &
hopelessness.
I sat up, stunned.
I felt as if strong, warm arms wrapped around my entire self, squeezing the loneliness & fear into a safe embrace full of love.
And every doubt was shot dead in that one moment.
God Had a Plan That I Didn’t See… He Always Has a Plan
God wasn’t letting me suffer for the fun of it…. No!
He KNEW that unless He peeled away everything else that I clung to as my source of hope, I would just keep clinging to everything else but Him… Everything but real hope.
He knew those things weren’t my answer & that the lies I believed kept me imprisoned into believing I was left to rely on unsustainable, unstable sources… like myself… ones that crumbled & faded & ebbed & flowed.
He wanted me to know solid, secure ground. He wanted me to know what true, eternal hope felt like, apart from anything temporal & fleeting that I tried to cling to.
He knew that the ONLY way to show Himself as the One true source of Hope & Truth that would get my attention & STICK was to take everything else away where there was only Him left.
Truth Is Truth, & It SHALL Set You FREE!
I had asked, not for a temporary fix, but for TRUTH I could rest in & rely on & He did what He knew it would take to show me that it was found only in Him.
You see, if you are really seeking truth… not “truth” that you WANT to believe, but ACTUAL, REAL TRUTH… God is capable of knowing exactly how you will know 100% what that truth is. He can make it crystal clear (with no smudges of doubt!)
If you just want a “truth” that satiates you into living how you want, you will always be on the waves of the sea like I was… trying helplessly to cling to whatever you think might help, only to see it insufficient & far from lasting.
But if you want SURE faith that you can go ALL IN & not come out a fool.
If you want something you can securely build your life upon…
It’s in Him. It’s found ONLY Him.
So ask Him.
Not a SINGLE Regret… Only Praise! And Freedom!
If you think I regret for a SINGLE moment those several years of doubts & then depression & then eventual suicidal thoughts plaguing my life… you are DEAD WRONG.
I feel SO BLESSED & SO PRIVELEGED to KNOW 100% what I can count on.
Do I still make mistakes? Heck yes! Do I still have doubts pop up? Heck yes!
Is God patient to guide me & do I now finally have a source I can go to with FULL CONFIDENCE to answer those doubts with patience, love, grace, & TRUTH?
YES!!! A million times yes!
I Want You to Have Peace & Rest in REAL Truth… The Simple Grace Offered by Jesus
And I want that for you. It’s why I do this blog. It’s why I write when
it’s not my strongest talent.
I want you to find that secure ground… That peace… That surety… That LOVE… & GRACE! I want you to know TRUTH!
So come to Him with your doubts & don’t stop asking! He HEARS you!
Shine Hope, by trusting in the sure foundation of real, lasting, reliable TRUTH.
Coming Next Week
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A Note from Michelle:
If you would like to hear more of my story, check out the “About Me” page. And if you would like to hear how I found my lasting source of HOPE, read the “Hope Is Found” page, on this site. I hope they are an encouragement to you! <3
Also, make
sure to “Join My Tribe” by adding your email to the top bar & clicking
“Join My Tribe”. This gains you access to an extra weekly dose of encouragement
from me in your inbox, along with the link to each week’s new post! I can’t wait to do this journey together!!
Weekly Special Spotlight:
Each week, I feature an item that is changing lives for women around the world. These hand-crafted pieces are offering job creation opportunities for women artisans in impoverished nations all around the world! Check out this week’s featured beauty!!
Quinn Necklace
This innovative statement piece is accented with white & silver beads & has a detachable bottom pendant (shown detached), creating two unique looks.
Artisan Information:
The women we partner with in India do so much more than just create beautiful products. With every purchase, another woman is empowered out of poverty to be self-reliant! Women have the opportunity to earn an income, attend financial management classes, & receive education & healthcare. These women are now able to give their family a promising future because of your purchase!
Purchase this piece & empower a woman in India!
SHOP
Here, OR, Email me at michelle@michellehydeonline.com with any questions, & I
will message you personally with more information!! Thank you for inspiring HOPE around the world,
Lovely!
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Ducking underneath the low hanging vines, she stepped through the dark woods. Her senses were alert, taking in the sounds around her. Above her, the deep green leaves rustled in the wind. Around her were the sounds of the forest, the bustling of the scurrying critters, aware & nervous of her presence.
And behind her, she heard a branch crunched underfoot.
It wouldn’t be long now before she was caught, but she was determined
to venture further into the mysterious darkness surrounding her.
Sunlight snuck through between branches, dancing on the dark stumps, soft
moss, & green grass of the forest floor around her. The darkness seemed to
dodge each sunbeam, but the light persisted, shining brightly through the
shadows.
Another branch crunched behind her.
She edged forward, taking in the smells of the woods. The fresh air was
intoxicating as she breathed deeply, relishing in the fresh scent of nature.
She reached out her arms as she strolled, allowing her fingertips to
brush gently against the leaves & floral plants along her self-made path.
She could feel the soft earth beneath the thin soles of her sandals.
Everything seemed right to her, & yet, something was not quite right.
Something was off about this place. As much as she tried to embrace this dark forest of a home, she felt that she never belonged here–that she was never meant to be here.
Something always lurked in the shadows.
She was getting closer now, she could feel it. The air seemed fresher
& the beauty surrounding her seemed to grow richer the closer she came.
Very soon now, she would arrive at her determined destination. She
would finally be free of the darkness that followed her every step.
Another crunch behind her.
“You can’t run forever,” a deep voice spoke up from the dark.
“I can’t stay here forever either,” she whispered in return, unsure of
whether she was even heard.
Undeterred, she continued to step forward, bold in her determination to
finally break into the light.
She had grown so accustomed to the dark woods. As foreboding & dim
as it was, it was all she ever knew.
Every rock & stump & creek & shadow were all familiar to
her. It was her home.
But she also knew that it was a lie. It was something she settled for,
not wanting to risk believing the tales of the bright place beyond her dark
home.
Why give up everything she has ever known for a tale of something that
could be merely a myth? Because somehow this “myth” seemed to beckon to her, calling
her by name, lovingly inviting her to see for herself.
She couldn’t see it, but she could feel it. It was more real than
anything she had ever physically seen or felt in her dark woods.
But her doubts kept her back for so long, asking her why she would risk
trusting in something that she could not see for herself?
Despite her trepidation, she had realized that her thirst for something more than this dark forest beckoned her beyond her ability to deter or ignore it.
She wanted to believe there was more. She wanted to believe that there
was something greater than this darkness she had come to accept.
“It’s not worth it. You won’t be
free anymore. Come back with me.” The deep voice stirred up doubts in her
heart. She hesitated, halted in the midst of the forest life around her.
“I can’t,” she determined. “I can’t be content to stay trapped here.
Something is missing & I want to know what it is. I want more.”
“You will regret it. There are rules. Here, you are free. Come back with me….” As she glanced back, a hand reached from the shadows & eyes gleamed in the darkness.
Something menacing crept through the calm look in those gleaming eyes.
“I… I won’t. Those rules others spoke of… they seem to be right somehow.
And I am not free here. It is darkness. It is suffocating. Something is
missing. I must know what it is.” She stammered, but as she spoke, courage
seemed to bubble up within her, emboldening her to keep forward.
“I have to know the truth,” she determined, turning away from the voice.
A mingling of fear mixed with her newfound courage. Those gleaming eyes
she had once accepted now left her feeling unsettled. Something about them sent
chills up her spine. She wanted to get away from them.
Stepping more quickly, she decided that nothing would hold her back
anymore. She wanted to see the light shine freely. She wanted to feel safe
& secure. She wanted freedom from the darkness that encapsulated her life.
She didn’t know if she was somehow too late. She didn’t know if she
would be counted worthy to leave the darkness & enter into the light, but
she had to at least try.
This place she had come to love & accept seemed but a shadow of
what called to her heart. She had to know & see it for herself.
The calm, deep voice seemed to morph in the shadows, an underlying threat seeming to cut into the words, “Come back now. You won’t like it there. It’s better here. Don’t hope for more. What more could you want than doing whatever it is you wish? This is the place you need to be. Stay here!”
Chills danced nervously on her skin as she pushed forward. She no longer
had the nerve to look behind her. The voice had always seemed to placate her
into never seeking out something better. But now, it seemed to threaten her,
demanding that she not break free.
She broke into a run & then she stopped in her tracks when she saw it… Light breaking through the trees & a gentle looking man, made all of light, with arms outstretched & a wide, warm smile welcoming her approach.
All at once, something inside of her changed. She felt securely loved
& cherished & protected & cared for & brave & strong &
free & FORGIVEN.
Looking into His eyes broke chains that had been clinging to her-chains she had denied were even there. Fear & regret & shame seemed to melt into the ground beneath her with every step closer.
She no longer doubted.
The voice behind her sounded desperate now. “No! Stay here! It’s better here! You can do whatever you want! There are no rules! Don’t go there! I WANT CONTROL OF YOU!”
She broke into a sprint, straight toward this man she had never met
& yet felt like someone she had known all her life.
He saw through her, every crack & every mistake. She could feel it.
He KNEW her, even her worst!
And yet… warmth. Love… Grace.
As she reached Him, she fell to her knees, tears streaming down her dirtied cheeks, too overwhelmed by emotion to meet His eyes.
She was too unworthy. She wasn’t enough. She didn’t deserve this
kindness.
And yet…
“My darling one, do not be afraid. You have been forgiven. My grace has covered you. You are free now.” His voice was sincere, gentle & kind. “Come to me, my daughter. I love you as you are. Welcome home.”
Her face tilted upwards, hesitant & humbled. Her eyes were red & & her cheeks tear-stained.
But something wonderful donned on her in that moment when her eyes met
His.
She felt light. She felt… free.
She slowly, carefully rose to her feet, not taking her eyes from the gentle
eyes that stared back.
Questions danced in her eyes, wondering if this could all be real… If she could really feel this secure & loved & forgiven & FREE… If she could really be accepted by Someone as kind & gracious & wonderful as He.
With knowing eyes, He nodded in affirmation, understanding her hesitation, & a genuine smile spread across His face, His arms still open wide.
“Welcome home, darling one,” He said as He spread His arms even wider, beckoning her into His welcoming embrace.
This time, she didn’t even pause before closing the distance into the best hug she had ever known… one that seemed to erase in an instant every heartache she had carried throughout her entire lifetime.
She was FINALLY home & she never wanted to go back to the darkness that was once her life.
*****************
After that day, she quickly realized that life still had its complications & she still made mistakes on a regular basis. But something was different now. It was as if she was being changed from the inside out. The more she got to know the Man who welcomed her into light, the more her heart seemed to grow in wisdom, strength, & peace.
She could feel His strength working through her. His courage replaced
her fears when faced with difficult circumstances as she learned to trust Him
through each storm.
She now could ask Him for wisdom in any situation, no longer relying on the limitations of her own understanding.
And she knew grace as a way of life. His grace seemed to flow through EVERYTHING.
She no longer lived each day trying to survive the dark world she once
called home.
He lit her path. He guided her steps. He cared for her & loved her
& cherished her soul.
His grace flowed through it all, allowing her freedom she had never
known before.
And never came a day where she regretted leaving the darkness of the
forest she had once called home because now she knew the stories were true.
The Bright Place was not actually a destination to arrive at, but a Someone to love her unconditionally… A Someone who gave of His own life to cover her wrongs… A Someone who conquered death & sits on the right hand of God’s throne. A Someone more wonderful & powerful & gracious than any she had ever known.
A Someone named Jesus.
And now, instead of living in the darkness… She lived in GRACE.
A Note from Michelle:
If you would like to hear more of my story, check out the “About Me” page. And if you would like to hear how I found my lasting source of HOPE, read the “Hope Is Found” page, on this site. I hope they are an encouragement to you! <3
Also, make
sure to “Join My Tribe” by adding your email to the top bar & clicking
“Join My Tribe”. This gains you access to an extra weekly dose of encouragement
from me in your inbox, along with the link to each week’s new post! I can’t wait to do this journey together!!
Weekly Special Spotlight:
Each week, I feature an item that is changing lives for women around the world. These hand-crafted pieces are offering job creation opportunities for women artisans in impoverished nations all around the world! Check out this week’s featured beauty!!
Holly Necklace
Co-Founder of Trades of Hope, Holly’s, passion is to empower women to be all God created them to be & to live out their potential. Whether she is visiting the brothels of Asia or in hometown USA, her desire is to see women live out their calling with pride & dignity. This piece is a reflection of the pride & skills a woman rescued from the brothels has when given the opportunity. A delicate piece, this golden/pink druzy necklace sparkles in the light.
Artisan Information:
In Asia, poverty leads many women to be sexually exploited in brothels. These women want to provide for their families but have so few options. But through your purchase, women are being rescued from these brothels & rehabilitated. Holistic care is given to these women, including a shelter, job training, healthcare, counseling, & educational grants for themselves & their children. You can help these women experience restoration for their future!
Purchase this piece & empower a woman in Asia!
(*Also Pictured: Lagoon Studs, empowering women out of poverty in India!)
SHOP Here, OR, Email me at michelle@michellehydeonline.com with any questions, & I will message you personally with more information!! Thank you for inspiring HOPE around the world, Lovely!