Sometimes We Can Forget to Pray about It

This topic has been in my queue for a while, & today seems to be the day.

Recently, I have started meeting with a friend of mine to pray weekly together, to serve as sort of my prayer accountability. It’s been so good & so encouraging to me.

While I do pray regularly, all throughout my day talking to God about stuff as it comes up or thanking Him as I see His hand in something… when something hurts me, angers me, or upsets me significantly… avoidance of the resulting feelings becomes my go-to gut response… not good.

You see, something has trickled into my heart. Something that has been trickling into my heart for the past 15 years… something I talked about in a blog post a few years ago, with: “My ‘Anti-Word’ for 2024–‘VICTIM.’”

I have allowed people’s opinions (judgments) of me make me feel smaller & smaller over the years.

When I Should Have Prayed… I Shrank

I SHOULD have prayed over them, trusting God to help me parse through between facts & opinions, but instead, I took them all as hits to my character & my identity. And I became smaller & smaller as a result.

Looking back, I can see how Satan saw a threat & he was smarter than me in knowing how to convince me to just keep my mouth shut & to shrink vs taking a stand for truth & being bold in my faith & obedience to God, even if it rubbed some people the wrong way.

God still allowed it to be a growing season for me in many different ways, as He never wastes our struggles or mistakes… but boy was it a rough ride when it didn’t really need to be.

I could have surrendered all of it to God for review. Instead, I got hurt & I shrank.

And, all these years later after recognizing this… I am still working to rebuild back to the bolder living-for-Jesus girl I once was.

All because I didn’t pray about it whenever it happened.

I Have Built Hurtful Habits… That I Desperately Need to Re-Write

And now, when someone says something hurtful or misunderstands me & judges me based on that misunderstanding or just plain doesn’t like me for whatever reason, I find myself shutting down all over again… it’s now my built-in, practiced, go-to gut response to it. I take it personally. I get hurt.

Not only do I get hurt, but I shut down when I get hurt.

I think about death a lot, to be honest.

Not suicidal as I have been 20 years ago, but definitely praying God would just let me skip the rest & straight shot it to heaven so I don’t ever have to feel that hurt ever again. I don’t like it one bit.

So, God encouraged me to reach out to a friend He placed on my heart so we can start retraining my brain’s reflexes to pray vs quit… pray vs avoid… pray vs shut down… pray for help vs praying for heaven.

No longer allowing the hurt to run the narrative. No longer allowing the hurt to trump who I am in Christ & the life He calls me to live for Him.

He Defines Me… His Opinion Matters Most

I am not perfect by any means. I am fully aware of my imperfections, temptation areas, mistakes, failures, wanderings, shortcomings….

But I am His. He made me. He had my days written before a single one came to be. He is bigger than me. He can fill in my gaps. It’s not about me being enough, but about Him being enough. It’s not about everyone liking me, but about me living to please Him. It’s not about everyone agreeing with me or liking what I say, it’s about being faithful to God’s leading, & about speaking truth (in love), even when it is very much unpopular. And when it comes to either people-pleasing vs God-pleasing, I should never choose other people OVER God.

Even when it causes other Christians to feel uncomfortable with it.

I am accountable to God alone, first & foremost. And as long as I live as His servant, speaking His truth in love, seeking to honor, love, obey, & please Him… then nothing else nor anybody else’s opinions really ought to matter to me.

Having My Focus Fixed on Him

Bowing all the dislikes, the hurtful words, the judgments, the slander, the misunderstandings… all of satan’s attacks… to Him as the One deserving of my all despite all of that.

Not quitting, but praying.

Not shutting down, but praying.

Not staying silent, but praying.

Not growing bitter, but praying.

Not taking my eyes off my mission to live for Christ, despite all opinions of me, but praying.

Which Do You Let Rule Your Life? Anxiety or Prayer?

I have the habit of running far away from the uncomfortable, as far away as I can get. I drown it in comfort-seeking activities, like my favorite video games, social media scrolling, snacking, or binging tv.

Avoid. Avoid. Avoid.

But what I ought to be doing is taking it all, every single bit of it… to Him in prayer. To allow Him to fix my focus, to settle my heart, to grant me courage to carry on, to not allow any other’s opinions of me to define me.

I ought to pray.

I heard a quote once & I don’t know who said it, but boy did it land. He said something to the affect of: “Why is it hardest to pray when life is at its hardest? Because when we pray, we’re forced to think on & acknowledge the hard… but that’s when we need to be praying the most, because God is our hope in it.”

Where Do You Turn When Life Hits You HARD? What Is Your Go-To Gut Response? Do You Need a Re-Focus?

We need wisdom only He can give. We need perspective only He can supply.

We need courage only He can bolster. We need comfort when the world withholds it.

We need strength only His endless power can provide.

We need to pray.

Which do you let rule your life? Anxiety or prayer?

Let’s rewrite those habits. Anxie…. PRAY. Fea….. PRAY. DON’T LET THEM IN. Pray!

Shine HOPE by learning to take every hurt, every anxiety, every fear, every worry, every misunderstanding, every other person’s judgment… to HIM in prayer. Let HIM rule your life instead of any of THAT.

“Therefore, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” (1 Corinthians 10:31)

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